you're STRAW to my BERRY :)

okayy , first of all nak ckp yg aku mmg takde niat nak leave him , act i still love him .
i did this utk kebaikan dia . okayy lhaa aku accept if dia nak 'buang' or 'benci' aku . mmg aku bersalah .
dan aku memang tak layak utk dia .
takde kaitan langsung siapa yg membina hidup aku either s_i or dia .
i'm the one that choose my right path . only me (!)
kenapa mesti nama s_i disebut ? sedangkan hati ni memang sedang sayang pd dia .
trying to forget s_i even thought i know it takes time right ? i don't want to remember anyone that had been entered in my life before this , i will try my best to forget *them . maybe .
seriously , i do i love him . tapi aku taknak membebankan fikiran dia , aku nak dia khatam al-Quran , that's what i want .
aku tak tahu mcm mana aku boleh decide utk buat keputusan mcm tu , tapi lepas apa aku dgr cerita daripada org lain . menghafaz ni bukan lhaa senang , banyak pantang larang . sch aku ada program ulul albab start drpd form 1 lhaa , so aku dpt lhaa tgk diorang menghafaz , susah ? bgii aku lhaa .
that's why aku pilih jalan tu utk biarkan dia dgn penghafalan dia .
aku harap sgt-2 kau berjaya dlm hidup kau , dan kau dpt khatam al-Quran .
aku akan tumpang gembira even aku bukan lgii sebahagian drpd hidup kau lgii .
i <3 you .
*my tears drop to the earth